i love you guys

thanks for all the advice with the james subject, it's difficult to get over him but i never honestly tried. i don't think i'll go to the wedding, i have had nightmares about it. i'm sorry i unloaded about all that, half of it was just pulled straight from the sub-conscience and i didn't even know it. i care about chris and i'm not losing that due to basic stupidity so angel, you don't need to worry about me. don't forget , i'm the strong one, but it's because of you guys that i am. i draw my stength directly from all of you. on a lighter note, i finally got to talk to my girl, archie, today. i was feeling kinda bummed because she didn't try getting a hold of me and i was wondering if i was on her black list again ( anyone who knows our relationship will understand why i'd be worried). it just felt really good to talk to her again. i miss her lots. dan asked me something today that was kinda puzzling, i won't go into detail here. my friends, i don't ask much from any of you, but please lay off the "hate dan" band wagon for awhile. dan is going through a lot and i want to be there for him but everytime i try getting advice on how to help him, i get the whole " you shouldn't even be giving him the time of day" routine. i help people, all people. and i would never tell daniel ray murphy to " get lost " as everyone seems to put it. so please please please stop.oh! erika, i don't think you're stalking me, and thanks for your input, i'll definitely consider all you say. and i don't mind how long your comments get, mine can get rediculously long. but i enjoy reading others comments and opinions so feel free to respong to anything.well, thanks everyone, just another reminder of how lucky i am for having friends like y'all.~red