Wow!

i leave tomorrow to go on my road trip with dan. i won't be back until sunday in which i'll spend the day with the fam.but there are a few things i want to say before i leave.I love you guys and gals. I will miss all of 'ya. i have most of your addresses and i will write and write and write and write and write. those i don't have addresses from i will get them from those i do have them from. Anyways onward...~CHRIS~ i know you don't read this but i want to say i'm sorry that you had to buy another plane ticket. i wish you wouldn't go, if that means anything, but i do understand that sometimes you just need a fresh start. i'm going to miss talking to you on our unique psychodelic level, you are a great friend and i hope never to lose that.~MIRANDA~ i have been trying and trying to get a hold of you, obviously to no avail. tomorrow and sunday will be the last opportunities to get online so if you could, email me at rojobonita@tellmeimcute.com and tell me what the hell is going on. i must admit, my curiousity is peaked and the suspense is killing me.~AMANDA~ take care of our sweetheart. i hate having to leave him behind to do this but my only solace is he won't be alone and i am returning. you'll have to play two parts in this act and i hope its not too much pressure but don't get comfortable in my place because i will be back to reclaim it.~MATT~ i miss you. hope to see you later, don't forget about me.~AMBER~ we did it! a whole year without fighting! it took us, what?, four, almost five years, but we did it! i love ya honey, take care.~MELISSA~ sorry you're having a difficult time finding your place in this world. Just remember, your true friends are going to love you through the bad as well as the good. i may not be able to show up whenever you need to talk, but i'm just a postage stamp away. i'll write 'ya and give you my addy so anytime you need me, i can stil be there for you. prep, freak, goth, punk, hippie, i'll always consider you my friend missy. always.~HEATHER~ i hope you have a fairytale prom night. sorry i couldn't help you much in that department. i tried. ~ARCHIE~ happy birthday... i don't want to be mean and hateful. i don't want to fuel the fire. i said i'd leave you alone but even a bum on the street deserves the slightest bit of human courtesy.~STEPHEN~ take care of everybody while i'm gone. i love you and once i get back we'll go back to platinum together. in the mean time, dan is a lot of fun and i really think it's a good idea for you two to hang out. i told you he wasn't a bad guy. and if we do wind up permanently united, it's a good idea for the husband and best friend to get along. Thanks for at least trying, i love you dearly.i suppose that's it. i miss everyone already. love ya all~red

A lot has changed...

I don't even know where to begin... I am going into the Navy, before everyone gets all teary eyed, I'll only be gone 6 months. Long enough to miss all of you too much. I'm leaving on the 21st of April.Yes, Chris and I broke up. I think he'll agree it felt more like a friendship than much else. But I am "dating" Daniel Murphy yet again...the man loves me as I do him. He's even saying he'll wait for me when I leave to pursue my dream. Have faith in us. Dan and I are going on a road trip from the 16th to the 20th. We're going to TN to go to Gatlinburg, KT so I can meet his father, and OH to see my older sis and visit Yellow Springs (a place that is still living in the 60's).Dan grew up in Yellow Springs which explains a lot about him. And I'm getting my tattoo! It's going on the lower part of my back and it'll be of a faerie. This trip is going to be so fun. Between working and spending every waking moment with Dan and Jessica Wooten, I haven't had much time to get on my journal or spend time with all of you. I'm sorry for that. especially you angel. But I hope to see all of you before I leave.Well, I wish I could say more but that's all there is.OH! Everyone needs to lay of Melissa. Let her go. It's best for her.Love Always,Red

I GOT TH...

I GOT THE JOB! YAY!!!!!! I start Monday at Z3 Graphics and I'll get paid $8.00 an hour to play with stickers for 9.5 hours five days a week! I'll work from 7:30 a.m. to 5:00p.m. THAT'S NOT EVEN THE BEST PART! My new boss, the man is a gift from God, also has a friend who is a lawyer and for 5 hours every friday I can go work in his office answering the phone and filing papers so I can get an idea of what an attorney's job is like. And he's going to pay me $7.50 an hour to do that. I am so estatic! Finally, things are falling in place.

well, i tri...

well, i tried to apply for a job today at Z3 Graphics, where my bro works. I don't think I got it. I didn't really put myself on the application. Then when I got an interview the man and his wife, a retired career counselor, started mulling over other options that would get me closer to my field neurology or law. I appreciate their efforts but I Need A Job Now! And a degree is not going to just fall in my lap. I need a good job to help me afford college and support myself. I don't want to flip burgers hoping that little $800 a month will get me somewhere because I know it won't. But i'm not going to fret too much. I'm a very intelligent person that has a lot of potential. If Z3 Graphics either doesn't recognize that or decides to overlook, it's their loss and another companies gain. I'm probably more Pissed Off because I had to wake up at 7:30 this morning For Apparently Nothing! I'm going to end up back at Ryan's ...blagh...grumble grumble. anywho....Archie, whatever makes you happy babe. My resentment toward Matt is based on the fact that for a while he wasn't doing that. But if he's willing to now, then everyone deserves as many chances as they can get as long as they are trying to improve themselves. I just hope it's not because you felt guilty for breaking up with him or that you're afraid of starting over again. If it's for any reason other than you're so in love with him that your happiness is based soley on his presence in your life and you know the two of you can work things out then you're making a mistake. Just remember, one of two things are going to happen now. He will either be so afraid that you'll walk out on him and next time there will be no second chances which will encourage him to be the man you know and love. Or he will figure you came back once you'll keep doing it and he'll treat you like shit. He'll play on your guilt, on your "coldness" for ditching him, or he'll take advantage of your kind, forgiving heart. Just be careful...the ball is in your court, don't give it up.Amanda: I love you girl. Reassure that bum we both know and love that he's not mentally ill...white lies never hurt anything.(J/K) He's really afraid of himself on this one. But he really is okay. Everyone has sick, twisted fantasies...but that's not what makes them sick. The morbid thing is acting on those fantasies. what he did was only rp so it was okay, it could actually be considered healthy for him to do it. It's getting it out of his system so he won't go off the deep end. RP is the closest he can get to actually doing it without hurting anyone...don't think I wasn't shocked though. However, I know angel would never hurt anyone, especially me.Erika...come out, come out, wherever you are.Anne: don't upset for what angel did. I know you have issues with the whole ordeal because of some past experiences but I assure I wouldn't be best friends with someone who in any way resembled Tommy Douglas.

For Jess... Unbare

With much faith and more hopeYou'll ascend from the voidTo this place where your dreams Can survive.With some time you will heal,And your scars won't appear,Then your heart will just learnHow to hide.But it will be there, Unbare.~RedSorry I didn't call 'ya today, I feel awful for it, but I've been sick today. *************************************************Amanda, I hope your not upset about mine and Angel's entries, it was all rp and for shock and fun. Sorry if it offended you and we'll behave. *whimper* I guess that didn't help my case too much in the whole "you have nothing to worry about" thing but it was just role-playing dear. I love you!