Saturday, September 8, 2007
it's me again...
AMANDA: yes, i do take a peek from time to time. i don't want to fight you for or over dan. not right now, anyways. j/k. i don't hold grudges- except against archie, but that's a well-deserved grudge, dare anyone to argue against it. you're still a friend in my book, especially since you're giving me credit as the better dancer.dan and i are doing well where we are. we are able to tackle issue as friends that we failed at pretending didn't exist as a couple. i'm not going to say of dan and i that "we're just friends" because of what that phrase means to me now (yes, another archie reference). but i never LOST hime so there really isn't anything to hold against you. AMBER: i love you. i hope that's enough to get you through all these rough winds knocking you around lately. i'm still here for you. always.STEPHEN: of course i love you too! do you feel like you've been extricated from "the group" too? i just found out that someone tried taking my old nickname of "cookie." yes, i detest that name even if it was dear ole kracker that gave it to me, but it is still mine. the rules are explicitly clear, nobody can take up the name of a former group member. i feel, not just forgotten, but with that "old news" feeling. i have one more person to address. one person whom i know will not receive it, but i have to try. KAT: i am sorry. i never meant to lose you completely, it's all my fault and i'm sorry for all the pain i caused you. i did love you and i still to this day harbor very strong feelings for you in my heart. i miss you so much and i was actually happy to see you that night that i called out to you from my mom's house. it tore me up that you wouldn't even acknowledge my presence. but i couldn't be angry at you. it's all my fault, i did this to us. i'm very sorry.##########################alright-y enough humbleness for one night, ready to transform back to my ice-hearted self. have a big test tomorrow. should be sleeping. oh well, not worried. i miss all y'guys. well, here's what's appearing in my crystal ball... graduating A school Oct 22. i'll move to yorktown, VA that night. then i'll start my C school on my birthday. i'll graduate that school June 25. then i'll move to charleston SC until 28JUL07 then i dunno where they'll place me for a year cuz i'm out 21APR08!!! considering how fast this year is going, it actually doesn't seem that long away. i doubt too many of y'all care, but there's the itenarary for my career.see all y'all on the flip side,~red aka gypsy
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Stacey, I'm sorry that you still hold a grudge against me, but let it go. I don't want us to be friends or not be friends. I simply live the life I have now. And I'm happy. You once requested that we keep our dispute out of the journals. I have shown as much repect on that as I can. All I ask of you now is that you do the same. I don't care if you go on a two page rant about how much you hate me, because it won't bother me in the least. Just let it go. Don't bring anyone else into this. I have said nothing but good things about you and it's not fair to the ones you still care about if you keep bashing me to them. I'm not doing that to you. I care about them too much. But I also have a life beyond you. I have a fiance' that I am very much in love with. And also, if you care about Miah or Matt at all, don't bash me to Jeremiah either. Those two are like brothers and that would not be fair to them. You can hate me, curse my name out loud, or carry a grudge till you die, but it won't do you any good. And one more thing. Jeremiah's email address is faramore24 (or 25?)@hotmail.com. You asked for it. Now I wish you the best and I hope that someday you will find your true happiness. Let it go. I said I was sorry. I don't owe you anymore than that. Jessica Archie
Stacey, I'm sorry that you still hold a grudge against me, but let it go. I don't want us to be friends or not be friends. I simply live the life I have now. And I'm happy. You once requested that we keep our dispute out of the journals. I have shown as much repect on that as I can. All I ask of you now is that you do the same. I don't care if you go on a two page rant about how much you hate me, because it won't bother me in the least. Just let it go. Don't bring anyone else into this. I have said nothing but good things about you and it's not fair to the ones you still care about if you keep bashing me to them. I'm not doing that to you. I care about them too much. But I also have a life beyond you. I have a fiance' that I am very much in love with. And also, if you care about Miah or Matt at all, don't bash me to Jeremiah either. Those two are like brothers and that would not be fair to them. You can hate me, curse my name out loud, or carry a grudge till you die, but it won't do you any good. And one more thing. Jeremiah's email address is faramore24 (or 25?)@hotmail.com. You asked for it. Now I wish you the best and I hope that someday you will find your true happiness. Let it go. I said I was sorry. I don't owe you anymore than that. Jessica Archie
Red...your new nickname is Gypsy? hehehehehe....there was a girl i knew that i called "Gypsy-girl"...she thought it was a compliment....it wasn't...if y'ask me 'bout it i'll tell ya...i promise...but until then know that in my eyes you are red...always have been, always will be...and girl, you'd better b'leive that it's an "always deal"...cuz as i said to you when you once said "this feels like goodbye"...nah....you and me girl...we're stuck with each other forever...
i have a way of expressing myself only through my writing and frankly, i don't even realize i've mentioned you, it just kinda floats in there. i would hope you'd have a life beyond me but face it kiddo, you hold a very special and significant title in my heart. the only person i cannot forgive. that's a big title considering i'm little miss forgive everyone...buddhist nature and all. but i'm glad it doesn't bother you to hear it because it doesn't bother me to write it. by me reminding people of your abilities to do something like that to your "best friend" maybe i can protect those i care about from letting the same thing happen to them. and that no drama sign is funny considering you are THE drama queen. however, you are right, i am being childish throwing your name around all the time, so i will make an effort. i haven't bad mouthed you to jeremiah, i've barely talked to him. but you know miah is like my greatest confidante and one of few people i can spill my heart to and not be judged for. i don't think he'd mind my ummm..."negative attitude" toward you. besides, matt is so smitten by you that he would not listen to what ANYBODY has to say about you. which is good, i'm glad you were so lucky to find one like that especially considering people usually have a lot to say about you. hopefully you'll be more fair (since that's your choice-word) to him than you were to me. i care about matt enough to hope that much for him.also everyone on that still reads my live journal already knows about the feud, maybe i just write it so i can still relate to everyone. try having so common grounds still. i don't know why i even try. it's like to everyone i died and this livejournal is merely my spirit coming back to give messages from beyond. but you're right, it's too much trouble and it makes me sound to much like a 16 year old still. hating you takes too much outta me and forgetting you is impossible considering everyone still mentions you. so...what to do, what to do. cordial...if possible...if i'm capable...i'll start here...congratulations on your engagement. wasn't too hard...possible....perhaps...for the sake of the ones i love...though they're the ones that forgot...maybe i should close my account here...why speak when no body wants to listen... why indeed...
a kid up here nicknamed pagan gave me that name. it was a compliment from him but for all the wrong reasons. he thinks we're kindred spirits and all. he says my eyes are bewitching like a gypsy, scared to trust them but won't dare not obey. and that when i dance and when i speak directly to someone it's almost like i'm mesmerizing them and putting them under my spell. bwahaha...he's giving me way too much credit but that's what everyone up here calls me. it's nice having a different profile. nice being able to be someone different. kinda like being able to play pretend, but for me it's different. it's not that i'm not being my true self because i have no true self. it's being a different self. i'm having fun with the temporary yet new me.
So you're asking about th'other girl i call "gypsy girl"? well...her name was Brittney...and i started calling her that in refference to an episode of Buffy....the one where she finds out Angel is a vampire...he starts to describe how he got cursed...he had fed on a gypsy girl that when the elders found out they cursed him...well...his description of the girl fit this girl to a T...."Beautiful...but dumb as a post..."so...i started calling her "Gypsy girl" as an inside joke between me and Dru..then she heard me and thought it was a compliment....dumbass....
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