well, i tri...

well, i tried to apply for a job today at Z3 Graphics, where my bro works. I don't think I got it. I didn't really put myself on the application. Then when I got an interview the man and his wife, a retired career counselor, started mulling over other options that would get me closer to my field neurology or law. I appreciate their efforts but I Need A Job Now! And a degree is not going to just fall in my lap. I need a good job to help me afford college and support myself. I don't want to flip burgers hoping that little $800 a month will get me somewhere because I know it won't. But i'm not going to fret too much. I'm a very intelligent person that has a lot of potential. If Z3 Graphics either doesn't recognize that or decides to overlook, it's their loss and another companies gain. I'm probably more Pissed Off because I had to wake up at 7:30 this morning For Apparently Nothing! I'm going to end up back at Ryan's ...blagh...grumble grumble. anywho....Archie, whatever makes you happy babe. My resentment toward Matt is based on the fact that for a while he wasn't doing that. But if he's willing to now, then everyone deserves as many chances as they can get as long as they are trying to improve themselves. I just hope it's not because you felt guilty for breaking up with him or that you're afraid of starting over again. If it's for any reason other than you're so in love with him that your happiness is based soley on his presence in your life and you know the two of you can work things out then you're making a mistake. Just remember, one of two things are going to happen now. He will either be so afraid that you'll walk out on him and next time there will be no second chances which will encourage him to be the man you know and love. Or he will figure you came back once you'll keep doing it and he'll treat you like shit. He'll play on your guilt, on your "coldness" for ditching him, or he'll take advantage of your kind, forgiving heart. Just be careful...the ball is in your court, don't give it up.Amanda: I love you girl. Reassure that bum we both know and love that he's not mentally ill...white lies never hurt anything.(J/K) He's really afraid of himself on this one. But he really is okay. Everyone has sick, twisted fantasies...but that's not what makes them sick. The morbid thing is acting on those fantasies. what he did was only rp so it was okay, it could actually be considered healthy for him to do it. It's getting it out of his system so he won't go off the deep end. RP is the closest he can get to actually doing it without hurting anyone...don't think I wasn't shocked though. However, I know angel would never hurt anyone, especially me.Erika...come out, come out, wherever you are.Anne: don't upset for what angel did. I know you have issues with the whole ordeal because of some past experiences but I assure I wouldn't be best friends with someone who in any way resembled Tommy Douglas.